I wanted to use the personal aspect in my post today because it relates to a lot of what happens here and also explains why certain things happen here that might not seem to fit or be necessary. The fact is that these things serve purposes other than what is contained in any specific post. I’ve touched on this before occasionally but I feel the need to do so again because it’s the sort of thing that will come up on its own up the road.
Because of something that happened to me in the woods of Virginia and, no doubt, because of karmic accumulations over a series of lives, I have found myself in the unenviable position of being identified as a spiritual teacher/master by some or, at least, given a similar status at various times and places. This has been happening for a long time and for most of that length of time, I have done what I could to dispel this foolishness, even if that meant acting badly in order to diminish that perception. I know very well how I fail in certain critical areas and I’m not going to allow false labeling to take away from what little good I might do with what little I have.
I’m not being humble or modest about this. It is the truth as far as my observations upon myself tell me. This is why I sometimes put human- all too human- comments into the comments section; joust with snarky, anonymous contributors and use words that the more pure among us wish I did not use. I could easily avoid all of this but I don’t. Too many people make too many claims about themselves or allow others to do so and do not take the trouble to enlighten their readers or supporters to the clear reality of the matter. A real spiritual master is a remarkable piece of work. I know this because I have one. I cannot do what he does… not by any stretch. When you receive useful things from me and when, as is often the case, you feel that I am speaking the thoughts right out of your own minds, it is because of this teacher.
As you are reading this, some of you are thinking that you have read nearly the same words before. You have. I’ve got good reason for this. I have the benefit of knowing some few of the things that are going to be coming up for us. I have a general idea of where things are going for me but… as I have been told… I have no idea; this said in a very positive way.
Let me say a little something about everyone who achieves at certain things and comes to the attention of their fellows. You instantly acquire enemies. These enemies are generated automatically, due to their idea that they could do it better. They’re like old west gunslingers, “I hear you’re fast.” In every area of endeavor there are frustrated souls; musicians, writers, business people, politicians, religious leaders… you name it and there is someone to resent you for it. They’ll tell you that this person puts his pants on in the morning, one leg at a time, just like you do. I’ll point out that I often sit on my couch and put both of my legs into my pants at the same time, just to counteract this image (true story).
A lot of these people want to know who the Hell you think you are when… you may not even be thinking you are anyone. It is other people who are saying these things about you. If a person allows a false, positive image to be generated about them and does nothing to clarify that, then they are complicit in that false image.
I’m not much different than any of you and I make some of the same mistakes every day. I appreciate that people profit from my efforts but I can’t take credit for them… I’m a horse; don’t mistake me for the rider. I get a lot of emails where people say certain things to me. I thank you for them but I pass them on to where they are meant to go. Getting trapped in the misfortune of believing your own press is not a sane place to be.
I like the idea of a community and I’m going to do what I can to make that happen for those of you who aspire to such a state of living. I’ll work alongside you but… I may or may not be around for whatever takes place later on and if I am, I’m going to be just like you and, no doubt, learning a great many things that I do not presently know.
The shit’s about to hit the fan in a big way shortly and no one knows exactly what shape that’s going to take. This is a good thing because it is going to be opening the door to many possibilities that don’t exist at the moment. It’s important to remember that the power within is far greater than any external appearance of power. If you can get that solidly into your belief system you are going to be alright and… should you be promoted early that’s no bad thing depending on where you were headed to begin with. The journey continues whether you are here or not. It continues right on from wherever you find yourself.
It is of paramount importance to you that you make the understanding that ‘everything is under control’ a living part of yourself. This is true and to the degree that you are assured of it, to that degree you will move with ease through everything you encounter. Realizing that everything is under control and being able to make, “I don’t know” a mantra will grant you power beyond what you might imagine.
You’re here for a reason and that reason is ‘realization’. Nothing else is important except to remember to serve as you go and to be grateful. Every day grants us opportunities to serve. Start looking for it and you will be amazed at the frequency with which you encounter it. It is always happening but most of us have closed our eyes to this due to the focus of self-interest.
There is a very selfish point to ‘serving as you go’. It immediately begins to adjust your way through the turmoil into the most expedient and protected pathway. Thinking about it in consideration of this is not the best idea anyone ever had but it behooves us to at least know that it is true. You also make friends and alliances for further up the road and you can never have too many of these.
The way existence is designed is to always work to our benefit. If this is not happening then there is something we are doing that is going counter to it. Whenever there is a problem of any kind, look to yourself and see if you can find the source of the matter. This is another practice that will pay huge dividends and you will be freeing yourself of the condition at the same time. It’s a win-win situation.
I hope some of this has been useful to you and, as for the other stuff; I’ve got my reasons to be saying it at the moment and hopefully won’t have to bring it up again.
We’re about to enter a new phase and the opportunity for very rapid growth will be there to be had, for those capable of seeing it, as it applies to whatever they have turned their mind and hearts and hands to. Soon enough, everything we do which is selfless, positive and serving is going to be handing out major bonus points that weren’t being handed out before.
Certain times are different than other times and this is one of them.
Finally… back in Origami and feeling a little like an Origami project; not quite bent out of shape but more bent into shape, a tad short of the moment of having relaxed into whatever this is but… getting there.
In the last episode, our heroes were talking about a community in the flesh for the purpose of precipitating the virtual into the actual. Some mention was made of Belize. That is a little close to Mordor however. Still… we are far more protected than we might realize. I have certainly found this to be the case, having been given direct examples of it over recent years.
Here is the housing structure that I have been considering and hope you will consider as well. There are a number of advantages to this structure. It is very cheap to build. It is warm and tight (or can be). It is beautiful and embraces a salutary architecture that provides remarkable feng shui.
I’m going to speak for myself now and anticipate that you will add to what I say; help me clarify my thought, make additions- because my knowledge is somewhat limited in these things- and generally help to solidify the vision. Let me say that it is not life and death whether we accomplish this thing. The important point is that we image it a la creative visualization to the extent that it can manifest with ease.
I need to be by the ocean; failing that we need a lake or a river with frontage. I am pretty certain that a good amount of finances will be coming into my life in the not too distant future. I am fairly confident that we have up to a hundred people who are interested in this project so… that provides additional financing which I would say amounts to what we will need.
We need to be within reasonable driving distance to a larger commercial area. We need to be in a country that has flexible building codes and that is a primary concern that needs to be addressed before anything else. My feeling is that there will be common areas and private areas and that a comprehensive design, a master plan, has to be in place before much else takes place.
I’ve been approached by several people in the medical field, doctors, who are very interested in being a part of this. We have some very informed individuals in the area of food production and permaculture. The Village Idiot and Michael Astera come to mind right off the bat.
I’m going to float around with this posting and just toss out a lot of ideas. I’m sorry not to be more concrete and organized. The fact is that I have a very good idea, blueprint wise, on how to do this but then it would be my idea and that’s not the way it goes. Costa Rica has a lot to recommend it. New Zealand would be ideal were it not so far away and so restrictive for immigration. Australia is ZOG land, as is Canada, the United States, the UK and various European countries. Also… a number of European countries are very controlling as far as building codes.
I do not mind a cold clime. We can always fly to the sun for the occasional sand and sea. Setting and ambiance are extremely important because the lack of them can seriously detract from the collective spirit. Italy is out because it’s a red tape nightmare.
I have some great ideas (I think) about how to support ourselves and no doubt others will too. There should be some minimal investment for each member but… some of us have skills that will prove to be far more valuable than money.
I put together a club some years ago called, The Survivors Club. Eventually we had about 200 members and it was a real success. It was a real success because no one was in charge. What we had was an inner group of about twelve people who had skills in specific areas. Each person discharged their duties and it worked like a charm. My skills tend toward food preparation; entertainment and grunt work; taking direction from those who need an assistant for what they do. I suppose I have a few other skills but not at the level of some of the rest of you.
I do not believe in making this project open to anyone. I’ve seen what happens with that. There has to be a vetting process AFTER we are past the initial stages. From what I can see, the people presently interested have already shown the necessary character for making this happen. After that though, we need to be aware. For the moment, I am throwing the ball into your court. Some of you have already come up with interesting locations so… please continue. Think about what you bring to the enterprise and begin to engage. I’m going to set up a blog where we can begin to discuss this and toss ideas around.
If problems arise with personalities, if someone wants out, we don’t argue. We take the left hand side of the bargain. There has to be a general awareness of impersonal being. Some of us are take charge types and some of us are not. We need a real sensitivity to each other so that no one feels diminished. So… grunt work and the less pleasant work needs to rotate through the group and I will certainly be glad to do whatever menial tasks are needed. I actually enjoy that kind of thing. There’s a vibe that emanates from a successful community that makes all work fulfilling and enjoyable. I’ve been there with that.
This is the last time I will use Origami for this purpose. This blog has another function and that will be back soon so, keep your eyes open for the community blog. If someone out there is more skilled at setting up a blog for this purpose and… that’s more than a little likely. Please let me know that you’d like to do this so it doesn’t wind up haphazard as it might if I do it.
This community is already a reality. It’s important to be aware of that. It’s already here. We are simply going through the motions to actualize it. A number of you are aware of the telepathy that takes place here; how I say something you were thinking at that very time or how some of you have done the same. We have some real powers at work here. Given that we can reduce our natural egos to the benefit of this work, there is nothing that can stop or hinder us.
Some of you have no idea just how wonderful this kind of living can be. It completes all of the longing within us and even effects a deeper communication with the divine. It fills the emptiness and super powers our faith and industry. As long as we take the small stuff seriously and the big stuff lightly we will be fine. There is also a magic that takes care of the details when we have the rest in order.
Let your mind play with the possibilities and as soon as some competent person offers to set up this blog we can have an environment to interact in. We’re going to have saunas and game areas… common eating facilities, hideaway groves for contemplation and interaction. We’re going to have anything you want that will make our interactions a real joy.
Alright then, I’ll leave you with this. Blessings on us all and let the wheels begin to spin.
There are a lot of things I don’t talk about here. In some cases it isn’t my place to talk about them and sometimes they have to do with things I shouldn’t talk about because it might involve arcane applications of personal power upon the plastic landscape of existence and… I’m not about personal power or applying it. All those highways lead to the same dead end and worse, as Saturn comes to rule the empty environment that one’s folly has isolated them in.
Over the course of the last several months people are increasingly unable to post at Smoking Mirrors and other blogs and they are being hit in various ways that have reduced traffic and comments. My reaction is, “So what?” These things aren’t my concern. I’ve attracted the attention of certain forces who don’t like what I have to say and they are also in league with the people who provide the platform for the blogs that I write. Am I dismayed? My traffic is being wacked; comments are becoming impossible for many people and maybe I’m floating in the Brazilian ocean with various other doomed realities… metaphorically speaking. It’s not my concern. Complaining isn’t my concern. Changing my message is not my concern.
I’ve come to love many of the people who visit these sites. Some of them I don’t even hear from any more. At first I thought it was me. Maybe I had changed in the wrong way over time and it escaped my notice. I now have convincing proof that this is not what has caused what is happening. To be perfectly honest, it doesn’t mean this isn’t a part of the problem but I expect my readers would tell me in that case and nothing has changed there. I still get the same amount of occasional, random complaints and the more general praise and support. I’ll take responsibility for the former. The rest belongs to whatever has authored the author of these blogs.
So… what’s my point? There are tireless little demons working in the background and they may, at some point, partially or completely shut me down within the present interface. You have my email if that ever happens and if that goes too, you have the light within you. You don’t need me. By this time, if I had anything of value to say I have said it already.
These forces are arrayed against any and everyone who are not down on their knees as accomplices to their own destruction at the hands of those who support the vanity parades of those who have chosen lies as the medium of advancement at the expense their humanity and the greater potential they will now no longer see. You know the routine. It is as ancient as the hills to which we look for our help; paraphrasing a Biblical quote here. I’m not a Christian in any contemporary sense but I do seem to refer to it with some frequency.
In certain ways, things have gotten very hard for me. It started toward the end of last year and it continues. Now and then it backs off for a few days only to reappear from a new direction. It’s sort of like being underneath a constantly surfacing boot heel making contact with an ever changing road surface.
I had a party yesterday to thank various local people and acquaintances for their help in certain professions or just being my neighbors. I labored the whole day before making all sorts of dishes that I am fond of from different cultures. Only half of the people showed up because they were already required to be somewhere else- or it was something else- but it was successful in all the right ways… even if I do now have all the food I’m going to need for the rest of the week (grin).
Once again, I noticed that even though I share various things in common with the rest of this human circus, I really am a stranger in a strange land. It’s going on ten years since I had to leave everything and everyone I knew and I’ve been pretty much alone except for those few who share my life. There hasn’t been much in the way of social contact and I haven’t seen most of my long time friends in many a year. My life has ceased to exist in the ordinary ways and though I know some large changes are on the horizon, I don’t know what they are.
People got drunk and loquacious… maudlin and emotional. I’m gone from here for awhile and that was a part of why I had the party. Toward the end a very large, very green grasshopper appeared and climbed out on to one of my fingers and stayed there for a very long time. Today he was still sitting on the table where I left him. We put out some water and green leaves. I don’t know what grasshoppers eat. He’s the only one I’ve seen here… some kind of a message but I don’t know what that is either.
I got a little hammered too. I didn’t have any of my personal comestibles and I have to say that alcohol is a poor replacement with unpleasant attrition. All in all though, I’m okay today. Now I’ve got to pack it up and head for the summer, main residence as life goes on.
I can’t complain. Even though I lack so many of the things that we all find so important in what fulfills us in this life… I’ve got some version of that grasshopper that follows me wherever I go but who changes shape and temperament in the same way that the seasons tend to adjust our relationship to the works of our hearts and our hands.
Maybe I haven’t told you how much I appreciate what all of you have done for me. I don’t have a home in the sense that most people understand that sort of thing and you have allowed me to live in your hearts and minds according to my poor efforts to say something meaningful whenever I have been alert enough to get out of the way in order for it to get said. Let me thank you now and irrespective of what is soon to follow, let me tell you that I have enjoyed and appreciated this more than I am capable of telling you now… or ever.
Lately I have been unable to answer my emails and this has gone on now so that it doesn’t look good at all. I apologize for this. I know I’m going to answer them. I just don’t know when. I would appreciate that you would extend me some amount of patience in this. I just don’t know what to say right now but that will sort itself shortly I think.
I have never seen times as dreadful as these. I have been in much greater extremity and faced with the possibilities of death and very long states of imprisonment. However, even in these cases the world never looked as grim as it does. Sometimes it feels like I did die and woke up in prison, all in one seamless procession. I realize how this sounds but it isn’t as bad as it sounds. I’m just writing what comes as a formula for being truthful. It doesn’t mean I’m sitting on a gray cot somewhere with a bottle of pills in my hand (sincere grin).
In any case, I’ve no idea why I wrote this or what it means. I will continue to focus on what is in front of me and- since some indefinable grace has given me the freedom to do what I like in respect of the application of my heart and my hands- expect that this will continue until I run out of things to say.
In summation, it seems I wrote this out of empathy with all of you who are possibly experiencing some version of what I have presented today. Don’t let it get you down. One of the reasons that certain efforts are so rare is because the price is so high in terms of the ordinary human situation. If we didn’t know this going in, we know it now. We never intended to stay here forever so… leave good footprints and I will see you up the road.
Greetings from within and without and so forth and so on; readers of this site will remember the account of my ayahuasca experience from last year. If you haven’t well, here it is. I had another one of these which spanned the last several days. It is ongoing as I write this post. For the most part it is of a personal nature though it also includes elements of everything and everyone else.
I’m not going to talk much about what was said to me about me because there are problems that can arise from repeating these things. People take things many different ways. There are some who might benefit greatly from what I heard but there are others where it might cause uncontrolled portions of themselves to rise up in reaction to it for ageless reasons with which we are all familiar.
Some of you have read the “Travelogues” series of about six postings that appeared here several years ago which included my meeting with, “The Man of the Beach” in Big Sur. On this occasion he has chosen to revisit me and tell me certain things. It is to be assumed that when he does something like this there is a specific reason because he does not visit me often, although he is present always.
I had a bad run during the last part of last year and for periods running into the present of this year. However as the turning goes, there has been a much greater positive sense hovering around me in terms of the way I see the world. At the same time there has been less appreciation by me of myself based on my observations upon my own industry; interests, intentions, intensity and much more.
I was told that… to the degree to which I apply myself right now in this moment over the course of however long this particular moment courses that… I would get many times more back for what I put in. So I have been as relentless as I am capable of being and you can be sure it is exhausting and you can imagine where one finds ones self wondering just how much one is capable of.
Ordinary life is going on in the meantime, as is; travel by car, numerous strangers and settings, uncanny weather conditions, musical chairs with long time close associates, chemical experiments, the whole nine yards which are not just nine yards but must be considered within the context of what any and everyone thinks ‘nine yards’ means.
In my case it means that I am summoning every particle of myself that I can access for the purpose of intense focus or complete removal. Some people want one thing and some another and some want several things. I want only one thing and that is the company of God. Everything comes from God; is made out of God and operates or exists within the parameters of God. Let’s assume that what I mean by God is something apart from religion or any other context. I’m talking about the thing itself… whatever it is essentially.
So… I’m at a remote location on the Ionian Sea in a cabin that I rented with a big music scene going on about 700 hundred meters away down a dark road to the ocean. A conversation begins in my head which indicates that I am supposed to hear something and it doesn’t take very long before I realize that this isn’t a conversation I am having with my self but rather with the thing itself or an agent of the thing itself which is the same thing. It catches me in a state of somewhat reduced awareness operating out of the sensory, touchie-feelie realm. You do realize that your senses are like insect feelers and other apparati that you are familiar with? You’re using them at this very moment for the purpose of recognition and comprehension, visualization, analysis and so on and so forth.
We differ from rocks; plants, insects and animals only by degrees of awareness and the same applies within the human spectrum between individuals and also between human beings and devas and Gods and the God… degrees of awareness. Each and all of us have our feelers and that is the bandwidth in which we interpret the world. We are like blind people poking with a stick and insisting that because we can’t see or touch something it is not there.
The basic power of illusion, what the Hindus call ‘Maya’ is operative according to our degree of confinement within the bandwidth of our senses. The parameters of our bandwidth set the limits within which we perceive our world. We act as if this were the entirety of the spectrum. It is not the entirety at all. It is only the degree of what we have allowed ourselves to believe is real. Some study on bandwidths and rays will reveal a great deal about what lies beyond the reach of our ‘ordinary’ senses. This is the power of the material world. This is the power of what appears to confine us. This is the determining level of how much we suffer. Our attachment to the impermanence of form is an indicator of what we will experience when these things are taken from us. Whether you work to let these things go or whether you hold ever more tightly to these things… they go regardless.
We are in a period of remarkable change. No one is going to alter any of it. We are going to go through it. Because it is a remarkable period we are being made a special offer by the author of it all. Just as this promise of unusual power and the promise of accelerated evolution has been offered to me, it is offered to all of you. For everyone who makes a more intense effort in this time, your effort will pay off many more times than it would at any other period. This is the implication I have been receiving from this visitation and I can assure you that the same points have been hammered into my heart and mind relentlessly… over and over. Reach as you have never reached before and, as I was told repeatedly… “See what happens.”
We are at the gateway to a new age. Much of what we have been familiar with for centuries is passing away. Many new conditions are coming into being. Whether you are recycled with what is being mulched or whether you ride the wave into new possibilities of being is up to you. You are either going to be sent to wardrobe for the costumes you will wear for the next cycle or you will go through the open window into a new world. This window is going to become more and more open and then it is going to close. If you cannot increasingly see how very true this is then you must turn your attention to developing an awareness of it. This is not just the usual cycle of two thousand years but also the beginning and end of a greater 25 thousand year cycle.
Many people find great amusement in laughing at this possibility. Many are indifferent to it altogether. The present state of the world should be telling you just how transforming it is. For those captivated in the material realm, the sensory bandwidth is the only thing they know. This is not true in any sense… not spiritually and not even according to rational science. Take full advantage of the undeserved gift that is being offered to one and all at this critical time.
I’ve had a few occasions of great revelation in this life. For the most part I have stumbled with inconsistent effort through the maze of material delusion. When I have had these moments they have always been connected to tremendous change. I can only speak for myself in respect of this but… this taken in relation to what I see and hear around me is conclusive proof of the truth of it.
I’ll talk more about this as the ability to do so increases by virtue of deeper reflection. For the moment let me say only that it is all too seldom that such great opportunity comes our way. Make of this what you will.
Maybe 30 years ago I joined this community. At the time the fee was $800 which I have yet to pay because I never went there. Once I took a train through Deming thinking I would stop in but I didn’t. My life is filled with such events. The California Rosicrucians once invited me to come live at their center in California but I never went there either. I’ve lived in some community situations. Some I had a leading role in and some I was just a part of for awhile. Some were right on and some were very strange but useful for the purpose of observation.
A regular reader, Richard, sent me some real estate pages for locations in France because I was talking about putting together- with the help of others- a living community that would allow for some shelter from the storm. You’d be amazed at what you can get for about a million five or even less than that. Some people might think that’s a lot of money. I don’t think that’s much money at all. Money is not nearly so hard to get as people think. If you have a creative mentality and a persistent sense of industry there is no limit to what you can achieve. I’m writing this today in a general way in relation to the idea of something that I will see happen sooner or later so it might be useful to talk about it a little.
I toy with money making ideas in my mind but I don’t do much about them. For me there are far more important things than that. Still… there are a number of ways that a collection of willing minds and hands could generate significant capital. I’m not going to lay any of them out here but I’ve come up with some good ones and I suspect that others around here could be even more savvy if they wanted to. Some of these ideas are not only lucrative they are as great deal of fun as well. In some cases you can make yourself the attraction which generates the income. This aspect is not the hard part. The hard part is in the collection of the right personalities within the right commonly agreed parameters of interaction. The latter is easy if the former is accomplished. A solid core group will generally be stable enough to manage features like expansion, which can be tricky for various reasons.
What I know about communes at the moment is that a lot of them tend to reflect behavior patterns that aren’t all that much better than what they left. There’s alcoholism and habitual drug use in a lot of them and some of those, which are based around a particular personality, entity or philosophy can be either too rigid or seriously wack. You can look into communities around the world and get a taste of the kind of things that go on. People are people and they tend to act out in certain ways.
For myself, I am looking for the company of people who combine spirituality with intelligence and humor and who are industrious because they enjoy it. This doesn’t mean one can’t take off large amounts of time to do nothing at all… it depends on the quality of ‘nothing at all’. I’ve lived as a recluse for a number of years and it suits me fine. Still, the idea of common purpose and the force and transformation that can be generated in group endeavors is an intriguing idea. I know a lot of communities are based around giving people a place to come and work out their changes on the way to some further point. Personally, I’m not interested in group therapy situations or watching the peace makers engaging the combative types, the power junkies against the iconoclasts …or vice versa. I don’t care for games and pecking orders or any rules besides common sense. This is why you need the right chemical mix of people. A collection of self-governing individuals requires no other framework of organization. I’m not out to save the world or to create something that could have been wonderful and which turns into a job.
There are enough special individuals that fit this description running around to fill any number of small communities and in some cases already do.
I have it on pretty good authority that I am going to come into a certain amount of resources that will make it possible for me to generate something like this without any other help. My intention is to generate it and just be there with the limited personnel I am already aware of. What follows will follow. I already live in a situation that would sustain some number of people but I don’t think it’s the final location and there may be no final location in that respect. What I am saying is that I plan to do this regardless of whether people show up or not. I believe I am already doing it.
Since everything visible comes here from the invisible, the first expression of anything is the idea. This is followed by a blue print which is followed by the actual process of making it and then there is the thing itself. Let’s consider a bed. First there is the idea of lying down. This is followed by all the types of beds that the imagination brings forth; all the designs and prototypes. Then comes the tools and the industry that manufactures the bed. Then comes the bed itself and then comes you lying on it. You can apply this to anything. It all gets here the same way.
We already have a virtual community and that may be enough. We live inside each others heads and we inspire each other whether we are aware of it or not. As for this virtual community, I would say that we are mostly aware of it. The wide range of talents and awareness that we find here is formidable. I suspect we could do most anything, provided we were motivated to and the good thing about it is that we are generally motivated toward the higher range of our possibilities.
I’m just tossing this out here because it’s been moving through my mind lately and it might be something to think about. We don’t know where the future may find us when it turns into the present.
The power of minds unified in single purpose is something that has been known since antiquity. It is the same power that is manipulated by those whose intention is to shape the world according to their own ends. It is what makes certain cultures stand out among the competition; if only for awhile. It is the ideals that are commonly agreed upon that provide the environment for their appearance as palpable realities. We are what we think we are as much as we are defined by what we think of others. It can be wonderful during those periods of time before the lawyers and the bankers start having their late night dinners with the robber barons and the war criminals.
The beauty of a smaller community is that you can defend against these things.
As far as America goes, its downfall was written into its genesis. Any time you want to grant a greater liberty you open the door for a following tyranny. Things tend to turn into their opposite given the inherent corruption of mortal ambitions upon the public at large.
I’m not saying I know what the solutions are. I’m saying I have some idea about the dangers and once there is a common understanding about the dangers you can set your guidelines based on them.
These dangers are no less present in the virtual than they are in the physical and it is desirable to arrest and treat with them in the virtual prior to having to deal with them once they’ve taken on a manifest appearance. Our phsical being is an enormous landscape of cultures and warring entities and you don’t see many people succeeding at that. It would be naïve to assume you would have any better success dealing with elements you can’t control inside yourself.
It could be that I am imagining it but… over the course of the last several months I have experienced… or imagined that I am experiencing, a much greater degree of internal and external static. Those of you who read the news of the wider world have heard about ‘chemtrails’, the GWEN and HAARP systems and assorted micro and radio wave pulse factors as well as ‘things’ in the water supply and, of course… there’s all those chemicals going into the meat and vegetables. One can assume that regardless of what we have heard about that there are other things at work such as subliminal broadcasts… telepathic resonance machines? Who knows what may or may not be deployed against our ‘presently’ human states?
I generally stay away from this particular area of inquiry. First off, though I know a little, I don’t know much and secondly, it’s one of those gray areas where my critics like to fly out with the usual labels that they attach to people who think outside of the box, while they are peering from within over the lid. These people may or may not be being affected by forces I am referring to. Perhaps the combination of cardboard, alcohol and ignorance serves as the tinfoil hat for the masses. I suspect this will not be the case for that much longer.
This is a Visible Origami offering and we don’t want to get too deeply into the minutiae of present day controlling efforts on behalf of the dark side, nor do we want to be too critical of those who possess limited critical awareness. I offer what I have to this point to set the stage for a certain amount of reflection upon the times in which we find ourselves and to put forth an alternate force which is also responsible for some measurable amount of confusion as well as more positive states of being.
The avatar is coming. The avatar has been or the avatar is here. We’re always in one of these states. There are some who say the avatar has appeared and what he said and did are about to go into wide motion. Others say the avatar is years away. Some believe it to be imminent and I am in this group. I point to 2012 and various astrological features on the horizon. I point to the state of the various world cultures, religions and governments and the noticeable upheaval at all levels in which we find ourselves at the present hour. I also point to the very long period of time that has passed between a true world revolution in consciousness and the perpetuation of the same old same old.
Another sure sign post is the disintegration of the various world religions which have become insufficient to the needs of the time. The pervasive presence of certain sexual trends and the separation in mind between children and parents in their perception of the world can not be discounted. When the family unit is thrown into turmoil, the world is on the verge of serious confusions. Those who view themselves in possession of a liberal mindset applaud these things, saying they bring us greater freedom and equality in all things. They are suffering from a form of spiritual and mental scurvy. Certain behaviors are always marginalized in a healthy society but that is not where we find ourselves today.
I can also point to the way I feel but that would be subjective and unscientific except to the degree that I am part of it. It is because of what I am feeling in the moment and what comes to me at odd times through my day that I am given the distinct impression that the avatar is nearly here.
What happens previous to the arrival of the avatar is that all manner of entities and possibilities of awareness are pushed before him as he comes. He comes from the inner planes toward the outer and he scours each plane on his way through. He pushes good and bad entities which have helped and troubled humanity down into the material realm for demonstration and judgment. This is what the Biblical statements about ‘seeing wonders’ and the ‘fooling of the very elect’ is based on.
The evil entities, immediately on arrival, seek out sympathetic vehicles to house them. They become like stolen cars. This is the explanation for the bad behavior in religious houses and in governments. The good entities seek out sympathetic vehicles that they can overshadow in their work. Similar conditions have existed all along but now they will be far more direct. You could look at the whole thing as if two massive hands gathered up all of humanity and the myriad objects and shuffled them like a deck of cards… laying out the game board for the coming age and dispensing at the same time, those blessings and judgments that all behavior demands for itself.
So… the recent uncertainties and periods of dis-ease that I have noticed over the previous months are not due solely to the activities mentioned earlier. There is another force of great benevolence, though potentially fearful aspect, which is presenting itself now and this…, is going to increase by the hour. One has to filter what they are experiencing and continually incline toward the higher inasmuch as discipline, intuition and right intention can manage.
Any sensitive soul will easily see what I am talking about. I have demonstrated before, the great differences in perception that exist among those who read here and at certain chattering, ‘twitter-enhanced’ forums. Here and in similar places there is a general accord about what is taking place. At these other locations, it is as if Burger King were upon the throne and dispensing his teachings to the dreaming stomach; the visceral mind, whose twin influences are appetite and fear.
My state has not been an easy one for me lately and I must assume the same has been true for you. It is the natural inclination for any of us to react with frustration and defensiveness in the face of invisible and visible intrusions upon our peace. This just won’t work. I am hearing those ancient phrases… “Be of good cheer” and “let not your heart be troubled”. I can think of nothing better to remember and nothing better to practice than a position of attentive listening. Think of yourself as “Nipper” the RCA dog. The other thing is ‘reaching’.
When something in your head or outside in the sensory realm is clamoring at you; often simultaneously… automatically ‘reach’ in. Another possibility which is similar is to walk into Nature or anywhere private and ‘call out’. Simply discussing what is happening and what you are feeling will draw a sympathetic response just as if you were in some red light district and looking for some kind of action. Individuals readily appear and offer various wares. It is no different on the higher arc. “As above, so below.” Remember to be discriminating in this too because there are any number of intelligences that cloak themselves in benevolence which is not benevolent. A little practice, accompanied by a sincere heart will not only manage this but ward against camouflaging agents.
There is a reason that certain groups and individuals are behaving in despicable ways. There is a reason that you are surrounded by lies on all sides and why so many people have sold out. This is all part of the drama. We shall come to points in the movie where this all gets resolved. Don’t contend with your surroundings. Let them be woven for you.
Make a home for the avatar. Invite him in. Have lunch with him. Speak to him. He’s attentive at all times and can do more tasks at the same time and much faster than any computer ever will. He can appear in many places at once and also has a 24 hour radio show broadcasting at all times. You have to tune that dial and work on the reception. You must prime the pump. It is my hope that this proves useful to any who would make use of it. Some might find this interesting.
Good evening my friends. I’m a little weary these days from an exhausting trip into the unknown that was disguised as familiar things. One of the reasons for staying in good physical shape is the demands that can be made upon you when you encounter the unexpected, such as having to walk a number of kilometers a number of times in the course of moving around and also carting the usual bag of items you assumed you would need for your trip and which you never do need. I think of that bag as being like the bag filled with our past words and actions which we are always carrying with us until we discover the way to set it down and walk away.
Buddha said that all life is pain caused by ignorant desire. Kierkegaard said something about suffering being at the core of the evolution of all life. I guess what this means is that pain causes us to grow and to open up or to become increasingly more shielded from the possibilities of life touching us in unpleasant ways.
I did something a couple of days ago that was a kind of a triumph for me. I displayed to myself and to others that I could extemporaneously take hold of an audience for a short time and then have the good sense to walk off the stage at a high point and not think that staying longer would make the result even more powerful. I was counter pointed by other speakers who each spoke longer that the length of an average movie. They spoke on detailed phenomena that require a certain amount of animation in the presentation to keep hold of the attention of ones audience. That’s a rare gift and it wasn’t in evidence for the most part.
What I did was very unlike what the others did though there wasn’t any conflict in our points of view, however… it’s the kind of contrast that can make for bad feeling among some and I have found… from previous events in other places that it is near impossible not to generate some bad feeling if your material is controversial.
I haven’t wanted to be on a stage in a long time. Though I never spent that much time on stages to begin with… as time has passed I have become more reluctant to do so. For reasons I won’t go into, I know that this is something I’m going to be doing more of in the future. Opportunities are coming up and I am meeting people who have a lot to do with making these kinds of events occur.
I hope you will forgive me for publishing tonight’s radio address as a Visible Origami post. I’ll go into more detail about this event at Reflections in a Petri Dish in the next few days. The truth is that I don’t have the juice right now to do all the things I should do after being away. Usually my radio shows are composed of a collection of talking points that I can expand on but for this one I will write a complete piece. This will be easier for me too.
This is the metaphysical end of what I do and I’d like to talk about the difficulties involved in talking about difficult subjects.
The event I attended was a 9/11 seminar and there were some experts on hand both from the world of science and general academia. These people are more controlled than I am and it’s the usual thing for me to wind up more controversial than other people. Because I do not know how to change what I am in this particular regard I have made it a point to stay away from public events. Most people like to stay within certain guidelines and in most cases they shy away from saying what is central to something like 9/11. It’s that eight hundred pound gorilla in the room that everyone pretends is not there.
The event took place in a pristine setting in wealthy Switzerland and you have to know something about the Swiss in order to get a better view of what happened. I’m not sure I can do that without saying things that will trouble some who hear them. This is main point of what I am trying to say but am not sure I will be able to say. The point is that the real truth always has a Rashomon-like quality to it. The people involved in any event never have the same recollection of what took place. They can’t even agree on how the mountains looked and it is a rare thing for anyone to know who they are.
The thing is that I don’t know how to talk about what I encountered because even though what I would say would be pretty accurate there is no way that I can spare people’s feelings and that is the dilemma that is on my mind this evening. How do you tell the truth in a way that can be helpful to the people you are speaking about and the people you are speaking to without causing them to instinctively run for cover because some element of what they say and do is being challenged?
Because these people knew who I was- and this was surprising to me. I didn’t realize that my work had come to the attention of people in the mainstream… they knew my position about certain issues. So I went to a certain person and I said, I know that you know what I think about such and such and that this is how what happened, happened and who was involved but… I won’t mention this tonight. The man responded with a thank you and told me that one of the things he admired about me was that I wasn’t afraid to say certain things but… we don’t say those things here. So I didn’t. What I did was to explain in a stand up comedy sort of a way that there was something I couldn’t talk about and I wanted to talk about that without talking about it. This turned out to be pretty funny and still got the job done.
There was press there and some number of cameras so everything was recorded. There was even someone there from the Italian press which surprised me. It was well attended given that it took place outside of an urban setting.
I think back on having attended this thing and a part of me wishes that I didn’t attend and am considering that I never will attend such a thing again because I see that I am unpredictable to myself and that is not such a good thing in places where you cannot speak your mind and those places are encompassing most of the known world now. Yes… I think it went well this time but there was a hairline of possibility between what I did and what I might have done and I saw again what I used to know about myself which is that once I’m in front of a microphone there is no telling what’s going to happen. Sometimes it is outrageous and that would qualify on this occasion especially when you consider that it was said to a crowd of Swiss people. This was okay. It was sort of like Elmer Gantry walking into a watchmakers convention so the humor aspect shielded the reverse pick pocketing that I was up to where instead of taking something you insert something.
When I went off the stage a lot of people followed me outside and I was surrounded by a ring of people. This I know did not sit well with others who were also present and who had a higher profile than me… much greater name recognition and certainly more money… heh heh…. As much as I might have upset certain stolid personality types… the promoters were very pleased and one thing I noted was a conversation at the end of the evening which involved people who were invited as possible financial contributors. I heard a couple of them say they would be more inclined to assist if there were more people like me and if I would come back. Later a couple of them asked me if I would return and were pretty clear about appreciating what I had to say.
There are risks to the loose canon persona but there is also a freedom that no amount of informed monotonal repetition of dry minutiae can compete with. I can get extremely wild and that’s not something you see much of in Switzerland. However… for the rest of the evening I was engaged in conversation with the younger set who attended and who didn’t want to be listening to the minutiae.
If you have some familiarity with German you can go to this website and see a general report on what took place. You will note that I am not mentioned at all and I am not surprised by that. Association with me and my controversial views is not desirable. I traveled by train to this event which involved 16 hours or so both ways. My time at the event was less than either of the train rides.
What sticks in my mind in the aftermath is how people who want to present the truth will go to great lengths to avoid the truth at the same time. There’s an old quote that a little knowledge is dangerous and what that means is that if you only have part of the picture then the part that you don’t have, or won’t admit to can be dangerous to you and others should they be traveling with your incomplete road map. Once again I wish I hadn’t gone, even though my mailbox was filled with emails upon my return by people who had heard me. It was successful in that way but unsuccessful in the sense that I know I pissed some people off. Some people want everything to be neat and orderly and the Swiss are masters at that but… you sacrifice a certain amount of important liberty as a result and you become increasingly more insulated too.
One thing I’ve seen in Switzerland is that if it begins to rain… even just a little bit… you see hundreds… sometimes thousands of umbrellas open up on the street as if it were some sort of collective celebratory response… but obviously it’s not celebration… it’s a fear of contact with timeless elements in the face of a guaranteed mortality… so what’s the payoff? I don’t know. I don’t know what the payoff is.
It’s my nature to shock people and that is why I stay away from people generally. They say they want the truth but they don’t… not really. They want an acceptable and accommodating version of the truth. The problem with this is that when they get into the ascendant as… sooner or later any real movement with a particular groundswell will… well… they turn out to be just as compromised as whatever they replaced. I am not saying that this is true in this particular case but Kierkegaard also said that boredom; boring people is also a great crime.
Whatever gets reported about the event… I was there and I know what I saw. I saw the same thing I used to see in any organization at any time anywhere and that is that they accommodate what caused the problems in the first place so that they can eventually become a new problem all of their own. The truth is uncompromising. It doesn’t take sides. The truth is not about making you feel good unless the truth makes you feel good to begin with. The truth demands that the truth be given the highest regard because… when it is not, then… it’s no longer the truth is it?
I don’t know what people expect to accomplish by only telling part of the story and avoiding the most essential aspects. This is something I don’t get and I never will and it is why I am a veritable recluse. If you invite me anywhere you had better know that I’m not going to play along. I just can’t do it and it will come out in different ways. Sometimes is going to be pretty fiery depending on how much rubbish is there to burn. Very few people like the truth. As I have said in other places… this is why Lord Shiva is never invited to weddings and the usual celebrations. What he is, is unwelcome when time and history have shown us how futile and corruptible our promises to each other are.
I genuinely liked the people I met. I am naturally inclined to like people. People are not naturally inclined to like me. I do not play to their vanities and I do not reflexively agree just because it’s the mannerly thing to do. I will never be a diplomat. I’ve always been able to grab a microphone and just go off. I don’t need a script or even a premise and if you give me a little trio of musicians then… so much the better. But I don’t play into my own vanity either. The key to knowing and telling the truth is that the first requirement is that you don’t buy into your own bullshit so I keep to myself but I’m not going to get to do that much longer… or so I am told and so it is going to be a little uneasy at every step of the way because the traditional sorts who have dominated both ends of the spectrum are not going to be the people that lead us into the next stage because the next stage is not traditional. It may become traditional over time; the very things that the founding father’s warned us against will happen to every movement no matter how noble because sooner or later Cromwell and his bureaucrats …along with a plague of lawyers are going to show up and shut down the very voices that the movement was founded on.
Sooner or later the corruptibility’s of money and power move in on the scene and for some reason all of these part time idealists never see this; never want to see it. The truth, like the cheese… stands alone and the highways of history are littered with the failed ambitions and broken commitments of those who took it upon themselves to profit from the truth and to stand for the truth when they couldn’t even stand for themselves when the time came.
I’m a little discouraged and a great deal inspired by what I saw. I don’t think I’m ever going to be welcome in too many places and I’m not half as outrageous as Hunter Thompson and William Burroughs were. What got them cachet is that they never mentioned God nor made any pretense of spirituality. This is what got Henry Miller such an audience by writing bad pornography. I’m wondering if the real problem is that most people just don’t get the sex they need and the greater problem is that they wouldn’t know what to do if it showed up in the first place and this goes back to the spirituality thing. Unless God is your lover… no matter what body you are discovering it in you will not have the keys to unlock the body upon which your attention is being given.
And that brings me back to the most compelling feature about the event and about life itself. It you don’t have love you have nothing and if you do have love then you give it away. You discommode yourself on every occasion simply to show the beloved that not even life is worth keeping if you can give it all away on what matters the most and most people are not inclined or equipped in this direction. Most people will not discommode themselves that far. In any life… for those seeking such camaraderie, you will meet only a handful of kindred spirits and at the end of your life when they want to give you all those awards and they want you to know how they were behind you all the way well… you’ve no interest in awards or honors. It was already the greatest honor to know that there was a source for being and that you chose to find it.
For all the short time gains that I have noticed in these places, the serious disappointments outweigh them by a large extent. You find that people will tolerate you while you are there but the sooner you get out of town… the better. The structure of the civilization itself is opposed to your presence. They will let you have your say but the continuum continues as it always has.
Our true kingdom of being is not here, the same way that ‘be here now’ does not mean be here now or even be here then. We shape what is- into what we desire …and so we kill the thing itself or rather we kill ourselves by our avoidance of what makes us immortal. Being that I am such a character in witness of that on which I speak, I will tell you. The loneliness of the road is generally too much for people in pursuit of the glory beyond. It’s always been this way and I can’t tell you why. Human nature… Nature itself; animal nature transcendent …where it should not be …with too much desire and too little restraint... I don’t know. I don’t know all the reasons why things don’t work out but I know what my reasons are and no matter what happens, I can take that with me… as can you.
When I was very young there were a few things that I wanted to be. I wanted to be an archaeologist. I wanted to be a professional baseball player and I wanted to be a rock and roll star. I had the capacity to be any of them. I achieved the first by discovering the Hermetic Sciences which is really what the archaeologist thing was all about anyway. I played baseball and all of the other sports from the time the sun came up until the time it went down. What I mean is, whenever I could or was allowed to. Since I grew up on military bases I could always find a field and players. I was a left-handed pitcher and according to my father (who played semi-pro ball) and who never had anything good to say about me, I had major league potential. That he could even bring himself to say this meant that I must have had some talent. When I was sixteen I separated my elbow and that was the end of that.
As far as the rock and roll star thing… the jury is still out on that. I’ve certainly had some small success and will have more. I don’t know how that will be resolved. In any case, it won’t be rock and roll but rather another venue. Today… I don’t care about these things at all. I no longer need the Hermetic Sciences because I made the connection I was looking for. The world of baseball players would not work for me. I would make Bill Lee look like a Mormon elder. The world of rock and roll is a dark place except for the shining light of vanity and that’s a black light of its own.
This isn’t about any of these might have been scenarios and… then again, I guess it is. I know some people wonder why I display certain negative behavior in the comments section now and then. They may also wonder why I wax scatological on occasion or why I do any number of things that aren’t really necessary and which serve to diminish me in the eyes of my readers. The truth is that I do it on purpose to protect myself from being taken for something I don’t want. I do it to mark up my surface. I do it as a form of reverse cosmetics. I have my reasons.
Throughout my life I have sometimes found myself being cast in a certain light by mostly well meaning individuals and also disappointing them when I didn’t live up to the standards they set for me. It was like being given parameters to operate within according to what someone other than me had determined I should be.
I’m good at some things and not very good at others. One thing I’ve shown some talent at is acting. It’s an easy thing for me to do and I’ve had success at it, even made a very good living from it for awhile. I’ve been around a few spiritual masters. I know the routine. I know some people who used to be something else before they became a spiritual master. Of course, there are degrees of spiritual mastery. Some of them are unquestionably in the zone and some are acting out at a particular level. The spiritual master game isn’t all that hard because… even when you fuck up it can be explained as a conscious lesson for the students as if it was on purpose to begin with.
In the spiritual master game anything can be- and has been- justified; a hundred Roll’s Royce’s, millions and millions of dollars, young naked girls and boys, double standards, gold plated bathroom fixtures, whathaveyou… there are a lot of Bennies. You don’t hear about the negative aspects but I’m going to cover some of those today. Before I do, I want to finish up on a couple of things.
I could play a spiritual master. I could internalize to where my complete focus was on self-control and everything else would follow. This is a key to the whole routine. The key to the rap is to route everything back to a particular simple point. It doesn’t matter what you are talking about. You just cycle everything back to your signature note. You can choose from a large list. You treat everyone the same and you speak to everyone as if you are speaking to the same person. You can either keep your mind empty or you can hold focus on a specific attribute. You take control of your posture and your gestures. You get into the role. You believe that you are what you seem. What happens is that others believe you are what you seem and power comes from the collective focus.
You cultivate detachment. This is an important point. You give your whole attention to whatever and whoever has your attention. You maintain your poise and you project welcoming warmth. You can actually do this. Performing these things with an inflexible regularity will eventually turn you into a spiritual master, at least as far as the appearance given. The focus of your followers supports this in various seen and unseen ways. Working the force of what is directed at you is another key to the system.
But the downside… hmmm... No one talks about what it is like to endure endless, stupid questions or having to answer the same questions over and over. You have to process various desires that are directed at you each and every day. There is a scrutiny that makes your life no longer your own. Well… a spiritual master isn’t supposed to have a life of his own. As soon as the number of followers reaches a certain amount, you acquire flacks. You acquire people representing you on their own initiative. You acquire an inner and outer circle and you have to process the ambitions of particular personality types that infallibly show up. You must mediate the internecine rivalries. A real spiritual master has these conflicts already resolved within himself but… real spiritual masters are as rare as hummingbird teeth.
There are people around whose avocation is to challenge spiritual masters, to make them uncomfortable. There are people who steal and there are people who fall out of love with you. Some of these people get on a mission to destroy your reputation and they will tell lies about you. Some of what they say may be true but there will certainly be lies. You will wind up listed on the Guru Rating System. Your time will not be your own. You will have to endure the company of people that it will be very difficult to like and you can’t send them away. These people will certainly show up. People will hang on you. People will constantly talk about their problems. These will be the same problems that you solved a hundred times before but which can never be solved because these people need these problems. People will want to fuck you… in all sorts of ways.
A certain type of old lady will show up. She’ll have a lot of money and she will be in love with the sound of her own voice but… you won’t be. You’ll have to hear about how wonderful you are all the time by the same people who will tell the world what a big fake you are when they fall out of love with you. People will use you as a backboard to show how wise they are and never hear anything you say. You’ll be in serious need of a vacation but there are no vacations in the spiritual master game. You’ll wonder at night, when you can’t sleep, why you didn’t become an accountant instead. You will have to watch everything you do because people are watching everything you do. You’ll have to give talks all the time and write a whole lot of books. People will write compelling publicity blurbs that will be very embarrassing AND certain people will want you to expand your theater of operations and the number of ongoing projects and they won’t stop because that is what they do.
You will have to resolve things in your past with the miracle of your present and people will come out of the woodwork and tell exaggerated tales about the person you used to be. You will be responsible for other people, in a certain respect, quite literally. You could well become addicted to pain killers. This particular pathology is not uncommon in the spiritual master game. You will be invited to New Age seminars and sometimes have to sit on stage with other spiritual masters and respond to the same stupid questions you hear every day already.
I could go on for several more pages about the downside of this trip but I don’t think it’s necessary. It’s more than a full time job and it’s a lot like having head lice after awhile. So… if you should ever wonder at some time in the future why I act a certain way that does not seem to be in my best interest or makes me look like I couldn’t be a spiritual master if I say and do things like that well… you’re right, thank god.
When I was very young there were a few things that I wanted to be. I wanted to be an archaeologist. I wanted to be a professional baseball player and I wanted to be a rock and roll star. I had the capacity to be any of them. I achieved the first by discovering the Hermetic Sciences which is really what the archaeologist thing was all about anyway. I played baseball and all of the other sports from the time the sun came up until the time it went down. What I mean is, whenever I could or was allowed to. Since I grew up on military bases I could always find a field and players. I was a left-handed pitcher and according to my father (who played semi-pro ball) and who never had anything good to say about me, I had major league potential. That he could even bring himself to say this meant that I must have had some talent. When I was sixteen I separated my elbow and that was the end of that.
As far as the rock and roll star thing… the jury is still out on that. I’ve certainly had some small success and will have more. I don’t know how that will be resolved. In any case, it won’t be rock and roll but rather another venue. Today… I don’t care about these things at all. I no longer need the Hermetic Sciences because I made the connection I was looking for. The world of baseball players would not work for me. I would make Bill Lee look like a Mormon elder. The world of rock and roll is a dark place except for the shining light of vanity and that’s a black light of its own.
This isn’t about any of these might have been scenarios and… then again, I guess it is. I know some people wonder why I display certain negative behavior in the comments section now and then. They may also wonder why I wax scatological on occasion or why I do any number of things that aren’t really necessary and which serve to diminish me in the eyes of my readers. The truth is that I do it on purpose to protect myself from being taken for something I don’t want. I do it to mark up my surface. I do it as a form of reverse cosmetics. I have my reasons.
Throughout my life I have sometimes found myself being cast in a certain light by mostly well meaning individuals and also disappointing them when I didn’t live up to the standards they set for me. It was like being given parameters to operate within according to what someone other than me had determined I should be.
I’m good at some things and not very good at others. One thing I’ve shown some talent at is acting. It’s an easy thing for me to do and I’ve had success at it, even made a very good living from it for awhile. I’ve been around a few spiritual masters. I know the routine. I know some people who used to be something else before they became a spiritual master. Of course, there are degrees of spiritual mastery. Some of them are unquestionably in the zone and some are acting out at a particular level. The spiritual master game isn’t all that hard because… even when you fuck up it can be explained as a conscious lesson for the students as if it was on purpose to begin with.
In the spiritual master game anything can be- and has been- justified; a hundred Roll’s Royce’s, millions and millions of dollars, young naked girls and boys, double standards, gold plated bathroom fixtures, whathaveyou… there are a lot of Bennies. You don’t hear about the negative aspects but I’m going to cover some of those today. Before I do, I want to finish up on a couple of things.
I could play a spiritual master. I could internalize to where my complete focus was on self-control and everything else would follow. This is a key to the whole routine. The key to the rap is to route everything back to a particular simple point. It doesn’t matter what you are talking about. You just cycle everything back to your signature note. You can choose from a large list. You treat everyone the same and you speak to everyone as if you are speaking to the same person. You can either keep your mind empty or you can hold focus on a specific attribute. You take control of your posture and your gestures. You get into the role. You believe that you are what you seem. What happens is that others believe you are what you seem and power comes from the collective focus.
You cultivate detachment. This is an important point. You give your whole attention to whatever and whoever has your attention. You maintain your poise and you project welcoming warmth. You can actually do this. Performing these things with an inflexible regularity will eventually turn you into a spiritual master, at least as far as the appearance given. The focus of your followers supports this in various seen and unseen ways. Working the force of what is directed at you is another key to the system.
But the downside… hmmm... No one talks about what it is like to endure endless, stupid questions or having to answer the same questions over and over. You have to process various desires that are directed at you each and every day. There is a scrutiny that makes your life no longer your own. Well… a spiritual master isn’t supposed to have a life of his own. As soon as the number of followers reaches a certain amount, you acquire flacks. You acquire people representing you on their own initiative. You acquire an inner and outer circle and you have to process the ambitions of particular personality types that infallibly show up. You must mediate the internecine rivalries. A real spiritual master has these conflicts already resolved within himself but… real spiritual masters are as rare as hummingbird teeth.
There are people around whose avocation is to challenge spiritual masters, to make them uncomfortable. There are people who steal and there are people who fall out of love with you. Some of these people get on a mission to destroy your reputation and they will tell lies about you. Some of what they say may be true but there will certainly be lies. You will wind up listed on the Guru Rating System. Your time will not be your own. You will have to endure the company of people that it will be very difficult to like and you can’t send them away. These people will certainly show up. People will hang on you. People will constantly talk about their problems. These will be the same problems that you solved a hundred times before but which can never be solved because these people need these problems. People will want to fuck you… in all sorts of ways.
A certain type of old lady will show up. She’ll have a lot of money and she will be in love with the sound of her own voice but… you won’t be. You’ll have to hear about how wonderful you are all the time by the same people who will tell the world what a big fake you are when they fall out of love with you. People will use you as a backboard to show how wise they are and never hear anything you say. You’ll be in serious need of a vacation but there are no vacations in the spiritual master game. You’ll wonder at night, when you can’t sleep, why you didn’t become an accountant instead. You will have to watch everything you do because people are watching everything you do. You’ll have to give talks all the time and write a whole lot of books. People will write compelling publicity blurbs that will be very embarrassing AND certain people will want you to expand your theater of operations and the number of ongoing projects and they won’t stop because that is what they do.
You will have to resolve things in your past with the miracle of your present and people will come out of the woodwork and tell exaggerated tales about the person you used to be. You will be responsible for other people, in a certain respect, quite literally. You could well become addicted to pain killers. This particular pathology is not uncommon in the spiritual master game. You will be invited to New Age seminars and sometimes have to sit on stage with other spiritual masters and respond to the same stupid questions you hear every day already.
I could go on for several more pages about the downside of this trip but I don’t think it’s necessary. It’s more than a full time job and it’s a lot like having head lice after awhile. So… if you should ever wonder at some time in the future why I act a certain way that does not seem to be in my best interest or makes me look like I couldn’t be a spiritual master if I say and do things like that well… you’re right, thank god.
A reader at this blog wrote me a letter recently asking about The Operation of the Sun. Here is the most explicit description of it as it comes down to us from antiquity.
The Emerald Tablet of Hermes
“True, without falsehood, certain and most true, that which is above is as that which is below and that which is below is as that which is above, for the performance of the miracles of the One Thing. And as all things are from One, by the mediation of One, so all things have their birth from this One Thing by adaptation. The Sun is its father, the Moon its mother. The Wind carries it in its belly, the Earth is it’s nurse. This is the father of all perfection, or the consummation of the whole world. Its power is integrating, if it be turned into earth.
Thou shalt separate the earth from the fire, the subtle from the gross, suavely, and with great ingenuity. It ascends from earth into heaven and descends again into earth and receives the power of the superiors and of the inferiors. So thou hast the glory of the whole world; therefore let all obscurity flee before thee. This is the strong force of all forces, overcoming every subtle and penetrating every solid thing. So the world was created. So were all wonderful adaptations, of which this is the manner. Therefore am I called Hermes Trismegistus, having the three parts of the philosophy of the whole world. What I have to say is completed, concerning the Operation of the Sun.”
Let’s understand a few basic points. We live in a world of night and day. We are composed of and respond to the movements and relationships of the planets as they aspect each other according to our time of birth and our location. You could say that this is the essence of our particular life karma. This blueprints our tendencies and the conditions in which we will find ourselves at different periods of any given life.
The major influences are The Sun and The Moon which rule over the interaction between what is visible and invisible in us. We have our day side and our night side and the harmonization of these could be considered our real life’s work. Various other stars play into our circumstances. I have mentioned how we are like a house with three floors. The basement is the subconscious. The main floor is the self-conscious and the top floor is the super-conscious. The basement is the point at which we access a great ocean of being shared by us all. Though it is the same ocean for all, the point at which we access it is unique to our individual self. The super-conscious can be called God. To the degree that we can allow the top floor to control what emerges from the basement into the main floor, to that degree we are aligned with the best of what is possible for us.
What I am saying here is simplistic and could benefit by a more exhaustive presentation but we don’t have that time and space available here. We have around 1500 words. You have to consider and expand upon what is said here. You can easily find more about all of this. You can easily find much more by using your intuition. Your degree of intuition is relative to your capacity to allow the top floor to flow into the main floor. Most people block this out because it interferes with the self-interest of the main floor. The more one lets go of self interest and allows their interests to be managed from the upper floor… the more intuition becomes the guiding light. In times of greater materialism… or where one’s nature is more materialistic… the capacity to get useful, divine input is severely curtailed.
In these materialistic times, the main focus of the individual is the construction and maintenance of their material state; acquiring status and wealth, protecting and growing status and wealth, engaging in and having a primary focus on sense experience and all of what you see when you look around you and see the mad fire in the eyes of the world; ubiquitous cellphone masturbators, pornographic culture, quick and immediate food for each sensory port, made from quick and immediate compounds composed of elements lacking in vitality and nutrition. This is what you see at the movies; hear in the music, consume in The Food Court, hear on the news and which compose all of the temporary lap dances of each diminishing day. The purpose of these lap dances is to distract the heart and the mind from deeper considerations.
Why would ‘the world’ want to distract you from deeper considerations? It is because you are food. The world eats you. You are no different than livestock in this regard and the world has conscious agents who have opted for service on this plane. You could think of it as a game. You could imagine you were walking through a red light district where shills stand outside of every strip club and regale you with the possibility of pleasures within. Once inside, you are stripped of your resources and once you leave you are missing something. Something is missing but you don’t know what it is. Heaven and Earth compete for your attention. Though Heaven surrounds you, it is not easy to see. The world is very easy to see.
The work of the world is to keep your attention on it; on what is outside of you. The work of Heaven is to draw your attention within. It is no more complex than this. It is you who decide what shall have the stronger influence upon your consciousness and thereby shape you into what you will be… or… reveal what you already are.
Some have the capacity to see what it happening here. Some have the capacity to suspect- or even to know- that there is more than meets the eye and ear. This is what The Operation of the Sun is all about. From the Emerald Tablet we learn, “As above, so below.” Everything you see here has a counterpart in the unseen worlds above and below the bandwidth of your senses. Upward/inward… the spaces are increasingly more open, more rarefied, more tranquil and cooler. Downward/outward, the spaces are increasingly denser, less rarefied, less tranquil and hotter. Upward/inward comes ever greater freedom, even though it comes through ever greater surrender, which self-interest regards as bondage. Downward and outward comes ever greater confinement through license which self interest considers freedom.
Through the stages of the Operation of the Sun, which are carried out by The Holy Guardian Angel, you enter new worlds, as you are transformed in ways that allows you to see them. You do nothing in this process but endure the transformations. Think of a department store with many floors reached by an elevator. Whenever the elevator opens on a particular floor you step into an entire world. Though we all seem to be moving through the same world here, this is not the case. Here in this world at this very moment people are experiencing Heaven and Hell. Though there may be some subterranean Hell it is also very much present here as well and so is Heaven. Everyone here is moving at this very moment toward another world and another set of clothes for another segment of greater suffering or lesser suffering.
The most important thing we can achieve here is an alteration in our consciousness. The thing that screws up most people is that they need to be able to ‘see’ and ‘touch’ things for them to be real. This is why they will accept a physical tour guide but deny the presence of non-physical guides. The physical tour guide knows only the physical level. The non-physical guide knows the other levels as well. We are talking here about a legitimate invisible guide… there are all sorts of misleading guides seen and unseen; “as above, so below.”
It is possible to precipitate upward through the planes of existence and we achieve this through a changing consciousness. People use prayer, chants, visualizations and various disciplines to assist this. They do the same thing going down as well. At the moment, an aperture is opening that only comes around every 25,000 years. This is why there are so many people here and why the material pull is so great. There is a war on for your attention. You should be able to see this… see it blatantly right in front of you but… it all looks like normal life. It has routine and hard surfaces. It takes a fierce attentiveness and certitude to focus on what you cannot see but believe (or know) to be true. The world is composed of lies. This should be readily apparent from observation and experience but… self interest intrudes. One might well ask if self interest is in your best interest.
We’re going to go over 1500 words today due to the inclusion of The Emerald Tablet and this following piece which might be a good project for repetition and memorization. I memorized both of these long ago and repeated them for years. This one is called,
The Pattern on the Trestleboard
“This Is Truth about the Self
All the Power that ever was or will be is here now.
I am a center of expression for the Primal Will-to-Good which eternally creates and sustains the Universe.
Through me its unfailing Wisdom takes form in thought and word.
Filled with Understanding of its perfect law, I am guided, moment by moment, along the path of liberation.
From the exhaustless riches of its Limitless Substance, I draw all things needful, both spiritual and material.
I recognize the manifestation of the Undeviating Justice in all the circumstances of my life.
In all things, great and small, I see the Beauty of the Divine Expression.
Living from that Will, supported by its unfailing Wisdom and Understanding, mine is the Victorious Life.
I look forward with confidence to the perfect realization of the Eternal Splendor of the Limitless Light.
In thought and word and deed, I rest my life, from day to day, upon the sure Foundation of Eternal Being.
The Kingdom of Spirit is embodied in my flesh.”
These sayings relate to the stations of the Sephiroth on the Tree of Life and could be considered as stages in The Operation of the Sun, just as The Stations of the Cross and many another practice all relate to the same process of self discovery, self realization, transfiguration, transubstantiation, divine sublimation or a host of terms. Everything cross-references the way the seven chakras turn out to be the seven planets and the way Mercury, Sulphur and Salt turn out to be the 3 Gunas of action. One mountain… many ways up. Once up you can see all of the ways down.
I’ll leave you with a little reading list that can prove very useful in respect of what has been said here. There is a fellow called Joseph Brenner who wrote a book called “The Way to the Kingdom”. He didn’t put his name on his books so… often the author is given as ‘anonymous’. He also wrote, “The Impersonal Life” and several curious little pamphlets. I can send some of the pamphlets out in PDF to anyone who asks. You might also consider “The Door to Everything” by Ruby Nelson as well as The Kybalion. These are out of the Western Tradition but West and East are the same except for appearance. If you do not practice spiritual discipline you will make no progress in the same way you will not wake up as a piano player if you haven’t applied yourself to the craft. That’s enough for now
